Monday, October 25, 2010

Payback time!!! It's ain't no punches from Clausius Clay..

Everybody, soon or late, sits down to a banquet of consequences.
Robert Louis Stevenson

Sorry for the lack of update... was recently BEEN thru some interesting phase in life!!!

Two weeks ago after the Nike run.. that night had a late dinner with Lam.. the nose started to bleed.. I thought it could just be some dehydration stuff or body being heaty as I have been sleeping damn EARLY in the morning.

So just ignore it.. then middle of the night.. the blood seems to be coming... thru the right nose...

So just put tissues and ignore it..

Then it happen again on Monday.. its kind of extraordinary.. middle of the night also the blood keep coming.. WTF....its not the ordinary bloody stuff.. keep gushing like hell's blood.. lotsa of... flow like pipe water dripping..

So on Tuesday.. I went to take some chinese herbal to cool myself down. It did stop only for awhile.. That evening it came again.. so I laid to rest before going to my boss dad's funeral ceremony.

At the ceremony ..it bleed again.. so I left early.. and the image of the lady in the MTV of TONGHUA bleeding keep coming..WTF.. is this some terminal stuff or what.. So I checked into the cheap myhome hotel near my house and spend a night as the weather is hot.. Thinking it could cool myself and stop the bleeding.. No it did not..at 3am.. I was looking at the mirror ..and pinching my nose as hard as I can.. it kind of like ghost movie.. the blood keep coming.. endlessly.. So finally heard the alarm ringing..

oFF I went to Hospital KL.. and the doctor gave me some medicine to numb it and ask me to come in the morning for the specialist clinic.. ENT.. ear nose and throat... advised me to come in 7:30..coz lotsa ppl wor.. oh the blood pressure was pretty high!!

So I went back to hotel and sleep.. could felt the blood flowing from my nostril thru my lung bit by bit.. this is no good.. I slept until 10 plus and try to take out the tissues..WTF.. it bleed even more... so shower up and stuck the toilet paper in my nose.. almost used up the whole roll of it. Then I drove to hospital and went to ENT.. wtf..LOTSA lotsa ppl.. but due to my conditions.. they straight away asked me to the surgery room.

Was asked to remove the tissues.. and blood gushing out again! was given the ice pack!! it was about almost half an hour before all subside.. and was taken blood pressure.. I never bother to read or understand about blood pressure anyway.. then another lady came in also same fate as me.. wow.. also nose bleed and was given the ice pack. Ahahaha.. so in an hour the doctor came.. put this 10 inches plus scope thingy in my nose.. wow..that was rather uncomfortable.. they were like mechanics grinding thru all the corner and discussing whatever nostril holes blah blah.. yucks.. and it was confirm I have hypertension!! The cause of it that rupture my vein and cause the bleeding..

So I was immediately warded lah. and cannot balik.. hmm.. how to cook up some story to tell my mum.. well.. but that part was being taken care of lah as I was season out of sudden outstation fler.. Hehehe.. mum had hypertension and crack her knee cap two weeks before that.. so would not want to alert anyone.

So I spend a good few days here at ward with no air-cond.. but it was fine.. lotsa fine young nurses attending... :p... the best part about this young nurses.. 4 times drawing blood 8 holes in both my hands.. Opps.. every time have to do it again. .The initial poking was done by a young chap in ENT.. he actually poke my bone.. and the bone kinda sticking out.. wow.. that was interesting.. ahaha.. whatever lah..

But overall the service of Hospital Kuala Lumpur had improved so much.. There are more doctors these day and staff and rather efficient and friendly I would say. I hope they keep up the service!! Two thumbs up and plenty of room for improvement. Then there was this dietitian doctor.. SYT..SYT..SYT.. advising me of diet.. and I was given the full attention and vice vesa OF COURSE...

Was rather freaky when i was so bored and browsing thru the internet on my tiny nokia phone to find out more about hypertension.. damn it.. it was no joke.. I could already develop pre-hypertension for sometime now.

ECG.. XRAY.. blah blah.. blah.. blood pressure was taken almost like 6 - 8 times a day.

surging up and down... sigh.. what do u expect.. after years of indulgence and bad habits.

So the number 1 killer.. outside food with high procees salt/sodium and MSG.. no wonder so many ppl are diagnose with that..
No 2 for me is work tension which I guess I does not manage it well... My fault...

No.3 late night sleep or early early morning sleep..

Thanks to my bunch of cohorts who visited me at the hospital.. Thanks to Alan, Lam, Teresa and Derrick.. who took the trouble to get stuff for me.. Thanks a lot guys..

Thanks to the klang runners ppl that keep calling me and asking of my welfare. I am touched and keeping myself well now.

Doctor said I was rather lucky that I did not had the rupture on the brain.. like the old man across my bed there.. else I could caught stroke.. walau eh.. The guy next to me even had this tube in his nose.. his bleeding was even more severe!! Was there for a week plus.. and only a day before I was discharge he got his tube clear off.. and he have to breath thru his mouth only.. pathetic..

yEA.. I am damn lucky...and lucky not to get stroke...

So lotsa thinking in the hospital... and stamp and seal some decisions.

Well.. I had been practising alkaline diet 90% of the time now. Steam and cook my meal at home. Unless it was some obligatory or gathering will I eat outside food now.

It was a rather amazing diet. lost 7kgs in a week even without exercising. This is really good stuff.. but gotta keep alkaline food up to 90% of the time. I think I begin to like this diet now.. Felt much stronger and happy. The mucus has been really really thinning and no more coughing now from the acidic bowel. No more inflammation in the stomach. In fact last Saturday I could ride that Putrajaya hill without much panting though could feel the blood pressure is still on the high side..

No more late sleep and manage work well.

So I guess my next appointment with the Hospital obesity department this early December should not be much of a problem.

So everyone.. keep your blood pressure check frequently.. and it one of those silent killer where it do it to you quietly.. Spooky to find lotsa friends are on medications for long term now even ppl as early as mid 20s.. This is wrong man.. Luckily I does not succumb to drinking or smoking.. or else I could tapau at the hospital arrival hall that day..

Ok.. goodnite everyone.



Sunday, October 10, 2010

Prerogatively saying

A few months ago I was trying to pick myself up from a failed relationship.. Perhaps I should not say fail.. There is so much to learn and I guess along the way after that I does adopt some funny thinking ideas which is going nowhere..

There were no calmness and peace in my soul. I was devastatingly lost to some degree.. hanging late at night dunno what and also shifting gear to sports and do it with mediocrity. But that mediocrity does translate to something else and better and rambling in devastation.. nah.. i am not that kind that rumble shit and dwell in it.

Only somehow last week the mind become clear and that peace is beginning to come again and that happiness.

Perhaps a switch to a new diet does help a lot.. physiologically changes does affect a lot on the inside.. more than u can imagine.

For the first time, I does not crave meat at much and began to find the joy and fun of eating more green!! and felt so much better and positive!! what and effect that was!!

Something snap when that one or two things that I want to achieve began as a dream which challenge me to go get it. Now I am really happy and passionate about it.

So the joy of putting the timeline and looking at alternative to do it in all sense come to power now.

The most important thing is always be happy and calm and that sense of peace in doing it.

So hopefully this one or two goals that I am determined to achieve will peel off some other elements to let me see other areas of my life that I want to go get now!!

its fun and I am happy now!!

and this song from The Boss himself came perfectly timely now.. you can't start a fire without a spark!!

DANCING IN THE DARK..
I get up in the evening
and I ain't got nothing to say
I come home in the morning
I go to bed feeling the same way
I ain't nothing but tired
Man I'm just tired and bored with myself
Hey there baby, I could use just a little help

You can't start a fire
You can't start a fire without a spark
This gun's for hire
even if we're just dancing in the dark

Message keeps getting clearer
radio's on and I'm moving 'round the place
I check my look in the mirror
I wanna change my clothes, my hair, my face
Man I ain't getting nowhere
I'm just living in a dump like this
There's something happening somewhere
baby I just know that there is

You can't start a fire
you can't start a fire without a spark
This gun's for hire
even if we're just dancing in the dark

You sit around getting older
there's a joke here somewhere and it's on me
I'll shake this world off my shoulders
come on baby this laugh's on me

Stay on the streets of this town
and they'll be carving you up alright
They say you gotta stay hungry
hey baby I'm just about starving tonight
I'm dying for some action
I'm sick of sitting 'round here trying to write this book
I need a love reaction
come on now baby gimme just one look

You can't start a fire sitting 'round crying over a broken heart
This gun's for hire
Even if we're just dancing in the dark
You can't start a fire worrying about your little world falling apart
This gun's for hire
Even if we're just dancing in the dark
Even if we're just dancing in the dark
Even if we're just dancing in the dark
Even if we're just dancing in the dark
Hey baby

True Love

Came across this in FB from a sharelink by a fren.


Its so much so people are seeking to take and take and what can u offer me and what can i offer u in a merry-go-round world this day...

It is not saith that there is no true love anymore in this world.. only not as much I guess.. only people will learn to be not afraid to love..

Indeed there is great power in love and such as this one..

Monday, October 4, 2010

Alkaline vs acidic

The newly installed Panasonic Alkaline ionizer and the ciplak biocera that my mum bought... :p
Panasonic even provide a small bottle of ph water test indicator.. two drops and viola.. now this is from the new alkaline ionizer... so we got a ph 9.5 here... good water for drinking.
now this is from the BIOCERA thingy that goes at ph7...

Water master does sell Alkaline water bottle commercially. It claimed ph8.5 - 9.00 and the nice label of PH9 on the bottle. Sold at 2.20 a pop for 500ml..

Damn.. it was good.. I felt so good after drinking it.

So I was thinking of getting a alkaline water ionizer.. Dr. Young encourage a 1 litre per 20 pounds of weight for those who wanna reduce weight lah.. so its up to 8 litres a day of water.. WTF!! that's load of H20 man..

Anyway, house does have a biocera thingy and I know this barang only soso ania lah..

Was comparing lotsa it and the one Dr. Young selling can buy a secondhand wira!!

So there is the Jupiter and other local brands.. all in the range of RM2800 - RM 3500

and canggih feature like OCR and whatever lah..

Anyway.. was putting lotsa thoughts.. rm3k ..that's gonna hurt.. hurt real bad..

so cheaper alternative.. is the Panasonic thingy.. which I am browsing thru.. and Panny saw a huge prospect and saw some roadshow online which promote alkaline ionizer..

Weighting the options.... and also putting into considerations the wheelset I wanted to get...

Wheelset? You dont need one now.. You need to promise urself to get down to 75kgs then we talk about it..

Alkaline water? You need it.. general health and for sports elevations and much more.

So called up Panasonic and get the details and head down to PJ and grab the new model which is at promotion.. free additional one unit of filter cart.. at least for one and a half year liddat i tak payah worry about filter lah.. filter is sold at RM259.00.. so if 1799 - 259 = 1540 for the unit lah.. :p... damn... I am playing cheapskate again... :p

Well.. lets see how 8 litres a day gonna make me feel yea...

Sunday, October 3, 2010

落花流水

流水 像清得沒帶半顆沙
前身 被擱在上游風化
但那天經過那條提壩
斜陽又返照閃一下 遇上一朵 落花

相遇 就此擁著最愛歸家
生活 別過份地童話化
故事 假使短過這 五月落霞
沒有需要 驚詫

流水很清楚 惜花這個責任
真的身份不過送運
這趟旅行若算開心
亦是無負這一生
水點 蒸發變做白雲
花瓣 飄落下游生根
淡淡交會過 各不留下印

流水 在山谷下再次分岔
情感 漸化做淡然優雅
自覺心境已有如明鏡
為何為天降的稀客 泛過一點 浪花

天下 並非只是有這朵花
不用 為故事下文牽掛
要是 彼此都有些 既定路程
學會灑脫 好嗎

流水很清楚 惜花這個責任
真的身份不過送運
這趟旅行若算開心
亦是無負這一生
水點 蒸發變做白雲
花瓣 飄落下游生根
命運敲定了 要這麼發生

講分開 可否不再 用憾事的口吻
習慣無常 才會慶幸
講真 天涯途上 誰是客
散席時 怎麼分

流水很清楚 惜花這個責任
真的身份不過送運
這趟旅行若算開心
亦是無負這一生


水點 蒸發變做白雲
花瓣 飄落下游生根
淡淡交會過 各不留下印
但是經歷過 最溫柔共震

最溫柔共震