A sad call in the middle of the night..

Got woke up just now by the phone.. it rung.. and I thought its customer seeking for support again in the middle of the night. Well, the number look familiar.. but I can't recall...

"Hi.. is that Boony?" a catchy voice..

" wow lady.. yes.. but 1st of April is long gone.... " I said.

" Do you remember me? I thought you wont sleep until 3am.. " She asked even without me finishing the sentence ler..

" You sound familiar.. but I aged these day... and old oredi...its 1 oclock plus and sorry I just not in the mood to guess" .. penat ler nak jawab..

" Do Rachel Lim sound familiar to you?" she said..

" Wow.. if u are that Rachel.. it was like many years ago liao...is that u?.. the one with the engineer bf one?" I was curious..

" Yes.. u still recall...goodness!!" she was kinda shock..

" How could I forgot u.. u are such a talkative gal....hahahaha.. Wei.. how come you still have my number after all this year? don't tell me you are getting married.. I remember last time you say u will invite me... ahahaha.." I said

There was a pause for awhile... and silent and sad voice..

" Paul died a month ago" She said.. " Sorry I cant sleep for sometime and I really missed him. Can we talk?"

I was speechless for awhile. There was such a sorrow in that voice. I had a sudden paradigm shift from thinking about my situation into something else. Perhaps someone who helplessly need a ear.

Rachel came from a well-to-do family but independent enough not to be spoil by her family la as she told me. She had a wonderful and intelligent boyfriend. I remembered how she tell me sweet thing about her bf. That time I was still with Janice and she used to console me when I broke off with Janice. Time does flies.

It must be very very tough time for her to call someone that she didnt call and seek comfort and share her sadness. She was quite grievous about it.

Paul had a sudden strike of Terminal cancer...kinda brain tumor and took his life away at such a young age. The picture of her married and living happily ever after just shattered. She used to tell me about how many children she wants and asked me opinion which church is best for wedding although she is of different faith, she adorn that marriage vow and think it is the best to have it in church.. for riches and for poorer and in health and in sickness..

She used to tease me why I cant recite it.. I said I miss my chance.. she console me that someone someday will be urs.. I just couldnt be bother that time as I still miss Janice a lot..

The conversation went on for two hour and I almost want to cried as well. It was such a tragic. I just wish it didnt happen to her. She deserve to be happy with Paul. But we just cant twist that had happen.

After talking to her, I felt that I am more fortunate than her. Sigh..

Hope she recover soon.. though its gonna take a long time.. 7 years of relationship..

I just left to ponder to ask myself some questions I had never ask before. Suddenly it just woke me up.