TGIF

i THOUGHT therefore I BLOG.

There is no parallel instinct stronger than this. 

I stand trial against this juvenile thought. Provoke and rebuke me if you must but that's just life of my own capacity of thoughts that send little signals of charges in every posible wavelength in my mind.

That is how I show up sometime at the mirror in dissatisfaction lately. But either that piece of shit dissatisfaction gonna pull you down or decide to yourself to move another inches by inches again...sometime if it is allow, we stand before a choice for quantam leap that day.

Today is D-Day, I decide upon something.. and that is...

tonight I am going to watch Terminator Salvation with my bunch of cohorts. 

Yea... I took the long puzzle for my campaign and by hook or crook you decide to engage and read my piece of shit because you fuckin' wanna know what's going on with my recent chemistry hormone raging life..

So what's happening actually...?

Nothing..just some couple of sms exchanges yesterday.. Pretend not to be smeagol like.. reading her sms which she replied with a yell in my heart " My precious"... This is a bit too senilE.. no it is not.. said it real damn slowly spliting that 30 milisecond in few hours long of saying.... " My precious"..... dont fuckin' retaliate me now.. I am sure for once in your life..you could have live exactly the same shit as this either malancholy or in tiger panting aggression.. Forget about stalking here.. I am 30's over years piece of shit and we stand in a new rules of engagement. While the fundamental is the same.. some rules still apply but ultimately the ball game has take some tweaks.

Oh.. How I miss that bitch of mine.. have not seen her for sometime. 

Where is it gonna lead to? I don't know.. I truly don't have the answer. 

But I do know.. I could live this day a better day. 

In sincerity and transparency of heart, we stand ourselves being fragile. Despite that every piece of fragility that could falter into pieces.. we see who we are.. 

So be it.. let every pieces of that might be falter be a magnificient one.